What's Behind Door #527?

Maybe we should rename my blog No Dice. I went to the museum to see the engineer and he was entirely uninteresting. He doesn’t take any control of a situation, only opened the door for me twice out of quite a number of doors even though it says right on my profile that I appreciate people doing that, and he just isn’t very imaginative or playful from the third-party observer perspective. He has never been even close to poor so he has no grasp on the reality that poverty provides, and he doesn’t really inhabit his body too much.

I used to date someone else like that. Both of these men do imaginative things for a living but the imagination doesn’t spill into their relationships with others somehow. Weird. To be fair, I did date another engineer one time who I went out with once NOT on a date and it didn’t even occur to me that we would date. He asked me out two months later for what I only learned later was to be a date and we totally hit it off that second time. I fell completely and utterly in love with him and he broke my heart after four months because the timing was bad for him to get into a relationship.

Of course two years and multiple similar excuses later by myriad men, I say to that, Cry Me A River.

At any rate, if Museum Guy had been more outgoing and take-charge and in his body, I think it would have been fine. He’s probably my height or an inch shorter, and he seems to be very aware of that. He's good-looking if he had the confidence to carry himself around but he doesn't. I know it’s hard being a shorter man. I realize this but I don’t want to carry his problem with being short around with me. I need someone strong and who can stand up to me, and he has not been conditioned to do that, which seems to be due to his being a short man in this culture...if I may offer my hypothesis for today.

I think he was a little surprised I was gracious when we parted ways, but of course I would be. I'm not a bitch and he was a gentleman to me, so of course I was nice. We had a fine time and if he were more in my face it would have worked well. But he wasn’t.

I did pontificate about the patriarchal vibe in my geographic area for a while, so maybe that will keep him from pursuing anything. If it doesn't, I'll have to let him down.